Map It Out or Figure It Out Later?

I actually count myself as one of those people who grew up in homes where everything was orderly. I was born into it and as obvious as it was, I had to follow the rules. Our home was orderly to the core aside the few days when we were allowed to let things play out. Everyone literally knew where this or that item was to be kept and once it wasn’t there, that meant it was either missing or finished. Till today, anytime I go back home, I still go to look for things in the same old places I knew they were kept and the last time I did that, I was surprised to find out things had been moved around in my years of absence.

It felt as though I didn’t even know my home anymore since I had to ask around for where to find every little things. I believe I had the best of up bringing because there was time for everything. I knew when it was time to wake up, time to get to school, homework time, Tv time and all. And honestly, it wasn’t even imposed on me. It was simply something I saw everyone around me doing and I played along and loved it.

And as I grew up, it all started to make sense . In my teenage years, I went wild as most teenagers do and rebelled against my parents and everything. It didn’t last long because I learnt my lessons early than most people and so I had a change of heart, sat down and restrategized my life once. I was one to do things orderly. I’ve always been a person of habit because tell me why I never have my supper until it’s 6pm. Even if my meal was ready at 5pm, I’d find something to do or wander around till the normal time my system was used to.

That was just me. Even when i went to the university, I had my study time, my school time and everything in place. You’d be surprised to know I even had my life planned out and made sure everything played out just the way I wanted it and it actually has till now. I couldn’t wake up a day without a daily plan because that would mean me wasting the entire day bedrotting or doing God knows what. As a chronic procrastinator, this habit of mine has helped me stay in check for as long as I can remember. The funny part about all this is that any change in my daily plan goes a long way to affect my entire day. A change meant I had to push things back or forward and that stresses me out a lot.

Last year, I decided to try something new and that was to just go with the flow. It felt good for a while but I realized I wasn’t all hyped up as I was when I had things planned out. It wasn’t bad totally because I got to step out of my shell and explore other things. I was hopping on anything fun because why not, this was what I’m here for and so I just went for it. The year ended and we had to plan things a bit differently. This year, we are trying everything which is basically planning things out and also living the day as it comes.

It’s been fun so far and honestly, I’m loving it. I’ve been able to strike a balance in my life these few months and this is something I’ve never been able to do for as long as I can remember. I’ve been able to meet my goals, have fun and do the things that I love without any hustle. It’s too early to say it’s working out perfectly but honestly, it’s worth the try. Life is all about rediscovering and exploring parts of ourselves we didn’t know of.

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