Random Thoughts
@minhajulmredol
Posted 1d ago · 3 min read
People are asking me why I have gone quiet, not talking much or doing anything, always in a tense state. Yes, I'm tensed, I always was, it's like I haven't been broken down into pieces just like now. I have faced my emotional breakdown, the ultimate stage that broke me down into my current state. Also, maybe no one noticed like that, as everyone is busy with their own headaches.
This is life, we are all busy with our own stuff, our own mismatches, our own problems. We barely we have the time to look into others' problems, fill them in, and pay tribute only to what they deserve. Oh yeah, I'm silent, more than before, because I'm losing to myself, kinda accepting what he had pointed out...
For the past couple of hours, I was panicked over a very small thing. It started with mass chaos. Since the evening, I had to go through a hectic journey to address the situation at that time. And the after effects? from 6.30 to 2.30+ and guess what, I got exams nearby and I'm wasting my time on shitty stuff.
Still, I had a few things to do, and I was panicking a lot even though it was very tiny stuff. And to do that, I had to go here and there, and face rejections, and only one came out to help, and so I had to pay back my words. These matters to me as los things are within my capabilities.
Oh, I got addicted to the Clash of Clans (COC) game somehow. Well, it's not like wasting countless hours, you can go for little by little just to be in a slow and steady move towards the upside. Every day, I check in multiple times, and maybe spend ten minutes on average while doing other stuff.
I don't know what's wrong with the surrounding people, but I have found my peace after suffering each and every week. It doesn't ask for countless hours; instead, ten minutes is enough for now, and come back late. So it's like, slow and steady progress, also the first and foremost thing is to stay careful with the IP and all.
Random thoughts are oftentimes more needed than the average ones. Throughout the whole day, there are countless viral talks. Day includes the same routine, well, enough of 3 AM stories, time to sleep as I got morning rush before the job.